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Monday, July 28, 2008

"Ray Bradbury's Farenheight 452"

Yes the title of this post is something he wrote back on October 24 2003.

And the "rugged" picture is one you've seen here before, but since he mentions it in this entry I have to use it again.
For whom had came to this section and wonder who the fuck is this writer behind the website you see. Some of the stories that are hosted here are part of the website Writings From The Grave. If you want to learn more about me you came to the right place. I had been writing since the mid 1990s, maybe some in the late 1980s if you count all the old letter that I had written when I was really young but mainly I had done a lot of the writings you see on the website from when I was starting at the age of 14 with The Glenbard Horror, but I had done revisions to them as I got older. Some would see some of the writing I have done in a literary webjournal. This is where I would write some of my sleep patterns and the others would be from when I would travel and have the dreams noted. I had been inspired as a horror writer much by the writings of H.P. Lovecraft and his protege, Robert A. Bloch. But as many horror writers who are writing around the time I am writing, many had adopted the writings of Anne Rice and Poppy Z. Brite as their influence then dress like characters of Anne Rice's books.
As you would see in my picture here taken on February 25th, 2001, by Carol Kelley, I tend to adopt a more rugged mystique. I tend to thank the Boy Scouts of America for giving me the rugged quality that I was looking for in my writing. I had explored caves when I was younger and done some rock climbing in Canada when I was older. What inspires that was reading Jack London when I was 12 in middle school and the fiction that was in Boy's Life, this is where I learned about Isaac Asimov. I had been intrigued by the landscape of Canada for the longest time so that is why I had gone to Canada in December of 2000. As Lovecraft and Poe I try the best I can to be well read and well travelled. I also struggle with a mental disorder -- two to be more accurate. I had been dianosed with a learning disability in 1995, which was the reason I was discharged from the Navy -- and under the advice of a doctor I kept a journal. Then my cousin found that journal in mid 1996, and then she another friend of mine said I should try my hand at writing.

I had sent some of my stories to publishers and got a lot of rejection letters so out of the result of that I decided to do a website to see if I can get some luck that way. The challege was also living near a major Christian college, Wheaton College. So there was a lot of pressure from the students there because at the time I was starting out I was a devote born again Christian. I did have an extent collection of horror novels as well as books that were given to me by friends in the area who were devote Christians because they did not approve of the idea that I wrote the genre that I was very much moved to write. Even when I was 14 I had been asked to write a horror story for an assignment which was a werewolf with a machete -- it came a long way from that as of now.

Now let us go forward to the new century, here I am now in my mid twenties and getting older as time goes on. Examples of what I do as a writer are on my websites and some of the online journals I run. I paid the price many times over for the talent I have -- paid with the woman I once loved leaving me and having to adopt out a * which I was too sick to raise. Now as it would be as for many years to come -- the way I need to remain stable is with the use of medication, that being Welbutrin SR. Sometimes people aske if my illness is demon induced but that is a bit of a contraversy when one mixes religion and mental illness.

As a result I am now disabled, disability for a mental illness is very contraversial now or days but I grown to accept the fact that I am sick. Though there is subject of much debate by the mainstream about the mentally ill. Since that I had found many places who support the mentally ill -- and felt that I am not alone. I had been stabbed and lived on the street -- so for me to live the rest of my life with Chronic Bipolar Disease, I had grown to accept that. I walked into churches before I knew I had the illness, when I knew I had ADHD -- they would say that I am not sick and that is something I knew they were lying right to my face.

Then I would hear that then they would put the mentally ill in with homosexuals, which is something I object to because I don't agree with the homosexual lifestyle. So I hear so many of these fucking bastards telling me that I am in the wrong for disagreeing; but all I have to say is this -- lets agree to disagree. Just don't get in my face because I refer to rainbow flaggers in the derogatory. I might be gothic, but there is something that I have say about the gothic lifestyle -- not all people who are gothic are homosexual, pansexual, pagan, Satanist, and dress like characters from Anne Rice or Poppy Z. Brite's novels. Some of us listen to speed and death metal, read H.P. Lovecraft, and are very much straight. This is rare to see but we are around.

All gothic people are very artistic in nature, the gothic writers never dress the same or borrow from the other gothic personalities but none of them are alike. If I had met a congregation that was gothic friendly, I just might still be in a churrch today but one youth pastor fucked all that up. (Pastor Shawn Addams of The Christian Fellowship in Mason City, Iowa.) I had seen a lot for someone of my age -- though there is a lot more to see and I plan to be around a long time. That youth pastor could not break my will to be a horror writer, and to denounce my gothic writings. He called my writings nothing and blank pages. I know and there always will be those who would scorn what they done, but they had given something to generations to come -- the inspiration and drive for their imitators to do the genre and take it to the next level.

When there are your extremists who would burn books -- it is almost as it would appear out of the pages of Ray Bradbury's Farenheight 452 which was about censorship. I had idenified with this book so much as well as the writings of Ayn Rand when I read her book Anthem which was in my senior year of high school. I had never thought that book would play itself out now in what I am doing. In some ways I am influenced by Ayn Rand -- since she had a very philosophical way of looking at society. What is comes down to when it comes to writers as H.P. Lovecraft, Robert Bloch and Edgar Allen Poe are that people are very much frightened of what they don't understand.

This is true with everything else, and more so since the attacks on the United States where so many died without reason. Sometimes the horror writer would be the one who reflects it so graphically or could not begin to find the words to describe what exactly happened to the World Trade Center on September 11th, 2001. This had changed the entire rules of writing horror in the new century. Online journals have the possibilities of finding a new writer a lot more promising, and one would never tell where they would come out of the ashes from the miles of death.

Time will give the reader the perspective on the older stories, the question is if they would stand the test of time. Being in that mind -- I know where I stand now but in the time when my sister would be in her twenties and I know when I made it is when in their time are writing short stories which were inspired by my work. Tragedies create for dark literature -- for that being in the gothic mind there will be more creative souls would come in the eyes of the written word.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

"I will let the ones who hate my guts do the promoting for me"

In the past 24 hours, I have recieved multiple anonymous tips that Nicky has been harrassing people in private, and 100% of them reported him saying the same comment telling them to go fuck their mothers. He has finally replaced the "movie theater videotape" insult with something else.

If you read "An Eye In Shadows" you'd see he brags about using insults like that to get under people's collars.

Now, onto our next lesson which also concerns him getting under your skin. It's what he and his friends want so that they can promote their own name through you.

First off, don't mention money and writers, because that angers him.

Monday, October 25th, 2004
4:16 am - Publishing: What my Philosophy is...
I read around some of the message boards from time to time and the bullshit saying being, "Money flows to the writer," they can kiss my ass about that one and one of the reasons I self-publish is because want it done on my terms. Not the terms of another person dictating when I will be published, self-publishing is one way of saying fuck you to that especially if a certain style of horror or writing isn't exactly welcomed in one way or another. Or if one has that story that is too controversial to publish by a traditional publisher they will put it out themselves. I learned lot from various authors when it came to writing, and many of my lessons about publishing came from the self-published authors.
Here is the payoff. Here is what he and his friends count on when they get online and attempt to start fights.

I am trying to figure out how to do the promotion, sometimes I will let the ones who hate my guts do the promoting for me namely when they want to do a voodoo doll of me to use on dart boards -- it shows I've gotten to them. I show that their hypocrisy is there because one of their publishers works with a place I published Collectives In A Foresaken Landscape at. One thing about being self-published is more of a challenge but the reward is even greater than the traditional publishing houses. I am not working with a vanity publisher -- but I am working with a place that also works with CyberPulp Press. Self-publication is sometimes the only way to do it. The willing to not play by the rules is the other thing that makes it more known these days. Costly yes, just depends on who one works with in the process -- I learned more about self-publishing by being on AuthorsDen and FictionPress.
And more insight on why he might not be as successful as he should be at this point. Has to do with free money he is getting.
If a publisher won't take a reprint -- fuck'em; I have no choice but send stories as a reprint because I don't want to endanger my disablity status. If I make a little pocket money here and there, fine but I want to do this on my own terms.
Keywords here: "A little bit of sucess online" (misspelling not mine)

I tell a prospective publisher to pick up projects I've been published with first before they consider just so they know what they are getting into with me. Right now I am that long, black-haired equal to a red-headed stepchild when it comes to the mainstream horror industry. I learned a lot about the industry as I am starting to advance further -- as some bastards out there would love to see me disappear into obscurity but they keep telling themselves I will never get published. I never came online to be a nice guy, pushing buttons is something I've became known to do and that is something I did a lot of when I started writing horror full time. I learned the fine art of being an atagonist from hanging around The Trenchcoat, and that is what drawn me to the website The House of Pain knowing a horror site like that was designed to push a few buttons. Exposure is more of value than money is if one is already published and seen a little bit of sucess online.
I've never read a book on success, but I think a big part of him not having any is his inability to spell the word itself.
His "infamous reputation"
I've seen publication on a number of websites long before I came to The House of Pain -- funny thing about it Brigit knew who I was long before I joined the ranks so for me to offer to help around with the website, it was the chance I saw as a way to get the site even bigger especially with my infamous reputation of being one who pulled no punches. I am encouraging more writers to come to the site with that attitude, the site allowed writers to be themselves. No matter part of the spectrum they were part of -- I am trying very hard to put my own opinions aside at times when it comes to being a co-editor, but when it comes to my own projects as an editor I am very particular in what I want. Some would find my Conservatism offensive, but they learn that is as much a part of me as what I am able to do with writing horror.
With the following, I'm going with Neo Nazi over Conservative. He does wish a lot of death on people.
Conservatism does have its place in the horror genre. It is a rare thing to see but when it is there, you know someone is going to be kicking a dent in the industry. I wanted to bring back the conseravtism that Lovecraft brought to the table. He got accused of being a racist, some accused me of being a Neo-Nazi but I am not one of those. Just that I have a strong sense of morals and strongly disagree with a lot of things that are passed off as the mainstream these days.
And finally, I think had he tried to put together a "Conservative Only" anthology it would have been a rude awaking for him when he realized that he isn't one of them.
I would love to do a collection of short stories all by writers who are strongly conservative -- would like to see some literary fiction as well in an anthology. I am learning more about that genre as I am branching out from horror, writing Science Fiction was my first attempt of branching out. The project of the Class of 1994 anthology is my next branching out effort as in the spectrum of authors I am looking for. When I went to my class reunion I ran into a kindred spirit, as in another writer -- I won't mind publishing him in this project if I can get a hold of him. There are a few writers I went to middle school with I wouldn't mind publishing either. I want to be more than a writer when it comes to a project like this, and talking with William J. Wright, he saw this too because when I did TABLOID PURPOSES that was my sitting in the editor's chair. I might of alienated a few authors in the industry with the project but that was my way of saying, "so what if I offend a few people. The writers in the project have some work that is bound to offend someone in some way or form."
So remember folks - Nicky and his friends who have recently attempted to stir up shit on other boards are counting on you to get upset and repeat what they say. There aren't going to be any lawsuits because they not only couldn't afford for their own actions to face them in a court of law, they couldn't afford people not talking about them.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Nicky The Football

I was just about to go to bed when I got an email notice from my comments section that Robotic Reader has struck again!

It's official: I have to sit down and attempt to read this book from beginning to end. Apparently it has far more dirt on Nicky than expected!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Robotic Reader Returns

I have read "An Eye In Shadows" a few times, mostly looking for certain words or phrases, so I admit there are apparently chunks of it I had missed.

After watching RR's latest video, found here, I had to open my copy of "Shadows" to see if he or she was making that part up or not. No! It's honest to goodness in that book! Same spelling errors and all!

I think I am in shock more so that Nicky wrote that than I am at the video itself.

Do yourself a favor and actually visit RR's Youtube page. The subtitles are half of the show!

Saturday, July 5, 2008

When Robots Attack

I have been hosting relatives for the holiday and haven't been around much. Thank you to The Rusty Nail and those who sent me emails informing me how to track comments. I am still deciding whether to do that or not.

Meanwhile, some robot named "Robotic Reader" has been leaving links in my comments section!

Here is the video from yesterday

And one from today

Poor robot having to read that! It is sad to me when technology is used for evil! ;)

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Question About Blogspot

Does anyone here know how I can look at the IP addresses of those who have already posted comments in my comments section?

Someone, probably Nicky, posted a genuine threat

Lake Fossil Press said...
July 2, 2008 5:46 PM

Now, while I have nothing wrong with him wanting to sell fags, threats are over the line. I suspect it's him because last night "Lake Fossil Press" posted something and deleted it before I could see it, indicating that something bad was said.

Any ideas I'm all ears. If it's someone pretending to be Nicky, I won't rat them out or turn them in unless it's a certain person who threatened the law on me on Shocklines (I see everything, I forget nothing pal) if it's Nicky, again, open to suggestions.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

I.O.W.A. Review Is Up

Someone volunteered to host the review of I.O.W.A. and did, so if you go on over to AngryInIllinois' deviantart page here you can read it.

I really don't know what his rage is about. It's not the story and doesn't contain any of the text from the story.

From what I've heard that's a good thing.

Report Him Anonymously

Copy/paste url of offending website